jenrevenant

I love food.  Dear God, do I love food.  I especially love sweet things and salty crunchy things.

So the worst part of this being healthy thing is the lowered intake of calories.

I don’t mind not drinking soda.  There are other delicious substitutes for it (Vitamin Water Zero being my favorite).  But it’s really hard to always substitute celery, carrots, and crackers for doritos  and chocolate peanut chex mix.  Actually, it’s not that hard during the day at work, but it’s really hard over the weekends.  I bought some baked Lays this weekend, just so I could have some chips and not feel totally guilty.

When I was looking at the store for something sweet, I looked at all the cookie boxes.  Three cookies for 200 calories.  Eight fucking Nilla Wafers for 200 calories.  I felt like I was trying to kill myself because, let’s be honest, my body isn’t used to eating like this yet.  I felt so sad.

I used to eat whatever I wanted, whenever I wanted, and I maintained my current weight fairly well.  But maintaining doesn’t get you into a nice dress.  Maintaining doesn’t make you sleep better because you don’t hate yourself quite as much.  Maintaining isn’t healthy enough.

So, I broke down and got some Breyers Smooth & Dreamy ice cream cookies (160 calories each).  God those are good.

I feel a little better tonight.  We cooked some hamburgers (very lean) – even though I didn’t get to grill because of the weather – and they were very good.  I ate my baked Lays.  I ate my ice cream sandwich.  I feel full and less depressed (yes, I’m taking my Lexapro as normal).  But I don’t think this weekend was good for me.  And I’m a little glad to be going back to work tomorrow, so I can’t obsess about the food in my fridge and pantry.

What’ll happen next week, when I’m on vacation?

Corn syrup! We’re breaking up.
The doctor explained it: I’m old as Tut.
I’m supposed to take pills that mitigate triglycerides.
Seems we’re at a crossroads, you and I.
Dated for decades, built up trust,
might have loved sugar better but it wasn’t discussed;
we had an agreement: you’d be in everything, I’d eat it.
But you lied when you said you’d be all that I needed.

Jacquelyn Hyde lyrics, MC Frontalot



So, I stopped drinking soda a while ago.  I’ve tried to cut out corn syrup all together, in fact.  I had a nasty cold around our anniversary, so since I couldn’t taste anything anyway, I stopped drinking soda and went through my withdrawal while I felt like crap anyway.

Without really trying, cutting out soda (except for special occasions), I’ve lost 10 pounds.  I’ve also started eating breakfast regularly (Special K pecan cinnamon is FANTASTIC).  And I’ve added a regular multi-vitimin.

Blood pressure today: 116/78

The one thing that has really been my only annoyance with Windows 7 was the way it handled Live Messenger in the taskbar.  Even if I only had one chat window open, it was treated as two windows.  It held one open just for the actual program even when minimized.

In an attempt to stop this, I set Live Messenger to run in Windows Vista compatibility mode.  Now the main program window runs in the systray and I only have one window for each chat.

We’ll have to see how this changes my view of 7.  So far, I’m highly in favor of the changes made.

There’s a lot of things in life you can do without.  I posit that you cannot do without a geek, somewhere, in your life.  Simply put, everyone needs a friend like me.

Where else will you go when your anti-virus program gains sentience?  Who else can you ask when your cat walked across your keyboard and deleted all your mp3 files?  What other army can you call upon when your WYSIWYG website editor needs it’s HTML soothed?

Geeks.  I’m tellin’ ya.  Ya’ll need us.  But do we need you?

Just a quick post to note that April 13 was our third wedding anniversary.  We went to Olive Garden for dinner and it was wonderful.  Being married hasn’t gotten harder, but it has gotten better.  I’m still so in love.